LIFE

Life can either be complicated or easy.  Overall, life is what you make of it.  My life has not been an easy one. I have been through heartbreak and just about every test given to a Believer. Whilst I have suffered tremendously (I'm only human), nevertheless I have been patient and have gone through my trials & tribulations with patience and have become closer to my Creator and appreciated life in general more.

Losing a child is about the biggest nightmare any parent has to face, I think. Having to spend 9 months carrying a child & bonding with that child for 20 years & then losing him is the biggest nightmare I have ever faced. No pain can ever be bigger or greater than this. I have had countless operations, from a brain tumour to almost losing my leg but the biggest tragedy in my life was losing my son. He was in a car accident and lapsed into a coma for 9 months, due to brain damage. I have never had complete closure to this, but life carried on and I accepted the inevitable. I never said goodbye to my son but watched him fade away before my very eyes. The pain was immense- it still is and I can never mention his name without tears clouding my eyes. There are so many unanswered questions but my strong faith has carried me through this ordeal. It has been close to 11 years this year but in my heart it is as if it happened yesterday.

I carry on because I believe there is a purpose for everything in life and I also believe that Allah will never put a burden upon a person which that person cannot carry - "Are you a believer having faith in Allah and the Hereafter? Then prepare yourself for trials and tribulations with knowledge from the Qur’an and the Sunnah, for the believer’s heart and soul will for sure be put to test to check the level of faith and trust he/she has in Allah Subhana Ta'Allaah" Allah’s knowledge and wisdom is infinite compared to the knowledge of a mere individual. It is virtually impossible for us to comprehend the full wisdom and purpose behind what we apparently observe. A person who has been suffering from distress should know that Allah (Swt) is fully aware of all that has happened or been happening to him. The believer should know that Allah (Swt) is aware of every little detail of everything that happens, so much so that not even a leaf falls from a tree without Allah (Swt) being aware of it. The important point to understand is that Allah (Swt) does not cause injustice to anyone by putting him or her through undue suffering.

Therefore, no matter how difficult my situation or how severe my sufferings are, I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that I have/had the ability to deal with this trial. Allah (Swt) is Just, and every affliction that He tests his faithful servant with, there is always two viable outcomes for him: passing the test with success and thus earning Allah’s good pleasure, or failing it. Our children are but trusts from Allah (Swt) I wanted to share this with all who have lost someone dear to him or her, especially a child.

May Allah (Swt) in his Infinite Mercy, grant patience and endurance to you all and may He elevate the status of All Marhooms/Marhoomas and grant them the highest level of Jannatul Firdous – Ameen.